CARPE DIEM
Ive been accused at more than one time in my life, of having an exhuberant optimism and enthusiasm when I meet someone new. He’s fabulous! We get along great! It’s wonderful! So much in common!
And Internet, that usually lasts five minutes.
I have a self designed survival mechanism (which is a basic method of picking apart said prospect in a manner not unlike a Seinfeld episode, resulting in a “Thank you for playing, your parting gift is at the door” conclusion). And that worked for me
for a remarkably long time.
Until now.
However, in perhaps what may be a very fine example of karmic reconciliation, I have been given my parting gift, such as it is.
And that’s ok, mostly. Because in the midst of it all, I had a little break through.
I actually took a chance on someone.
Thats like a big deal for me.
Trying to make a connection, brief or otherwise, is hard. I mean, surely I am not the only jaded being on the plant right? So many people insulate themselves and build the walls and create elaborate obstacles to happiness out of the fear of being UN happy.
Yet in spite of all of that, they still try. I tried Internet. Because I do kinda get that you can’t keep doing the same things and continue to expect different results. You can’t hang out in your comfort zone and expect the newness of attraction or anything else resembling affection to show up on your doorstep all un-announced and gift wrapped.
So. Lesson: Sieze the chance to be happy even if it scares the crap out of you and doesn’t work out.
Isn’t that what this life is for?
